After my trip to Big Bend, I began to see the world in a different light. I had long since stopped being Christian, but pure atheism didn't fit either. I considered modern paganism, but I viewed this with skepticism as well.
I was looking for some kind of belief system. Animism was probably the best fit for what I felt, but this was a broad, and very nonspecific term. So, I decided to cobble together my own traditions and beliefs into a system definitively me.
This involves a camping trip every winter solstice. I took my sojourn last weekend - a one night in Missions Tejas State Park.
2025's Winter Solstice
In previous years, I've usually stuck to Sam Houston National Forest, but I've also done Lost Maples State Natural Area (which was my favorite), and Stephen F. Austin State Park. This year, I decided to go with Missions Tejas State Park.
I've been to this park before - it's a busier one, and every site in the park was occupied this Winter Solstice night. We have been having a warm and muggy December and the solstice was no exception: high in the mid-70s, low in the mid-60s (~24 C to 17 C). Humidity in the 80s. No wind.
Despite being packed, it was relatively quiet. The trails are beautiful here and deceptively long. The longest trail may claim to only be 2.4 miles long, but you can connect it up to other trails beyond the trail heads, meaning it's quite easy to get lost for half a day without seeing a trailhead. Unfortunately, we had total cloud cover, and so I did not see stars despite how dark it was.