I am glad I found bear blog
It is Saturday night. Technically, it's Sunday morning. Houston, for once, seems quiet.
I was delaying sleep after a night of intoxicating substances when I felt like finding some soundscapes to listen to. I happened to find one I used to enjoy before I realized how many of these videos across YouTube were AI generated. I was pleasantly surprised to find a video of the content creator on camera, showing his work process, including his keyboard and software. I suppose that also could have been faked, but it seemed real enough to where I felt I could indulge myself again.
And this got me thinking about Bear Blog. I fired up my blog on a whim last October. I had a story I wanted to tell, and just needed some where to throw it out there so that maybe someone would catch it, and we would share a moment of connection out there in the increasingly lonely internet. Since then, my mood has generally improved. I have an outlet for my thoughts and for all the writing ideas I have.
Rather than doomscrolling when I am bored, I have been making an effort to read more intentionally. This includes my copies of Texas Observer or National Geographic I get from the library and the Discovery page here on Bear. I almost never comment on anything, but I enjoy just picking a few by title, and then closing my eyes and picking some at random. Sometimes I find something enlightening. Sometimes I learn about a person's day. Sometimes I have no idea what I am reading.
Either way I always come away feeling better. It is nice to know I am not alone out here in the darkness.